as if my deviant name wasn't a dead give away...
i am among other things, a loner of sorts.
it is not that i do not like people...
i just don't like to be around them much.
i have a few really good friends, in which i can confide in fully and completely, but i find it hard to trust people, especially if i do not know them.
i'm not sure what i'm afraid of...
they're just people like me, with personalities that may vary, but we are all the same in the sense that we are all human beings. right?
even though sometimes i feel alienated, as far as i know, i am human...in an odd sort of way, but still human noneoftheless...
is it hard to visualize me as a loner?
let me put you into perspective...
there's a room full of people, probably, a party...
it's crowded, and everyone's being absolutely crazy.
the music is pumping through the stereo like the blood through your veins.
the room is generally pretty dim, save for a few chaotically colorful lights.
people are dancing, shouting for no apparent reason,just having an all out good time.
then you notice a dark figure alone in a corner.
as you come closer, you recognize the dark figure as a girl...
she's alone, her eyes are looking down at nothing in particular
her hair, falls like a curtain around her face, as if she's hiding
that girl is me...if you haven't guessed yet
i know, wierd right?
but that's just how i am most of the time
on occasion, i go to parties...i usually bring either a book to read, a notebook to write, or a sketchook to draw, because i'm so unsocial...
although, if someone were to come over to my corner, and start talking to me...i probably would talk back, as long as it wasn't more than one person.
there isn't really a point to this entry
i guess it's just me having pity party for myself
no one really cares, or understands what it's like to be a loner
i was just in the mood to write something...
thaks for listening...
love,
xXLonerEyesXx